“Being able to move on is such an underrated characteristic. Like everyone wants courage and confidence and intelligence and beauty. But if you think about it, none of us need any of those. But all of us get met with setbacks that we need to get past. We get hurt and we lose jobs and we go through break ups and our pets die. And we’re still expected to do things the next day- like workout or cook or pick our sisters up from school. The responsibilities don’t realize that part of our world just came crashing down, they don’t go away just because we feel like we can’t do them anymore. But moving on is empowering. It’s being able to continue to be ourselves without being saddened or torn apart by something negative that happened to us and that doesn’t even sound like an accomplishment but, my God, it is.”
self-destruction doesn’t always look like taking too many pills or cutting your skin open. sometimes it’s drinking coffee when you know caffeine gives you panic attacks. sometimes it’s crossing the street without looking both ways. sometimes it’s showering with the water a little too hot. sometimes it’s avoiding eye contact with your reflection in the mirror or ridiculing your problems rather than addressing them. sometimes it’s walking out without sunscreen in scorching heat and not wearing enough when it’s freezing out. self destruction isn’t always physical mutilation, mostly it’s masked as little things so never assume what someone may be going through just bc they don’t show you visible signs of suffering.
Lets talk about how hard it is to open up to someone about being sad for no reason. Lets talk about how hard it is to explain to your friends and family that you have this heavy feeling in your chest for no reason. Lets talk about how hard it is to understand why you’re having a panic attack while just taking a walk back home. Lets talk about how hard it is to understand your own self and how scary it is to feel like the whole world is falling on your shoulders and you have no idea why .
Shout out to all the people who struggle late at night to sleep while dealing with their nightmares, flashbacks, panic attacks, hallucinations, insomnia, a body that is convinced sleep should only happen in the morning, or when they’re almost asleep and their brain suddenly comes up with a surprise convincing reason that they need to be Anxious and upset right now. That shit is tough to deal with and you don’t get enough credit for hanging in there.